Tis the Season

The season of change that is. Ever heard that saying about people being in your life for a season or a lifetime. Well that is what this post is all about. I have come to realize that some of my relationships have been kept well past their due dates.

I have come to a point in my life where I am only wanting to be around positive people; people who are encouraging, full of life and love. I feel bad that I did not notice or simply overlooked the very judgemental ways of some of these people. I guess when it was not directed at me it did not matter but I now seem to notice and it irritates the hell out of me.

If you consider someone a friend then why are you always talking about them and how trifling you think they are when quite frankly you are only in a slightly better position. Why not be a real friend and try to encourage them to do better. One person in particular just seems to think that it is not their problem and why should they care. But wait, isn't this person supposedly your friend. How can you sit in judgement of someone else. Come on !!

Then they are those to whom everything is a competition, no matter what you accomplish they find a way to try to outshine you or say that "oh well, I did such and such". Are you kidding me? Are you that insecure that you have to play this game.
You can't just be happy for me?

I said all of this to say that there are several people who will be deliberately dismissed from my life. You have proven that you are not truly a friend in one way or another or I have simply had enough of the bullshit that is you. I can no longer make excuses or even overlook the drama that you bring to my life. Tired of you trying to control what was supposed to be a friendship hoping to keep your flaws hidden. Just because I don't throw them in your face doesn't mean I can't see them.

Here is a hint "if you can't be broken with your friends,then who can you be you with".

So the season of change has begun for me. Over the next 30 days I will be letting go of some of these toxic situations.

Smooche

Carla

Non-tradional Student

Yep, that title suits me. I have applied to school but I obviously can not start in the fall. I applied too late. While I am typing this I am considering applying to the nearby community college just to get myself started again.

I am so tired of getting laid off so it is time to get a new career at the young age of soon to be 33. I have to do this I have no choice. I hope that my friends and family support me..

Goodnight ALL

Feeling kind of bitchy

So just let me say that my mood the past few days has not been the best. People have beening working on my nerves with no end in sight.
I am at the point where I think that I should just take some me time and not speak to anyone other than my sister and a select few others.
I have lost my need to create and that is a problem. so I cut out a pattern for a infant's outfit that should be simple and easy to put together.

I also plan to work on some writings and clean out some clutter. So this week will be one of silence where I may not answer my phone unless it is imperative that I do so.

With Love

Your girl

Hola

Okay so I decided to start taking foster care placements again. I have got to get a new stroller and play pen. The stroller I currently own sucks. The wheels get stuck and do not roll straight. And the playpen has been recalled some time ago.

So if anyone knows a good brand please email me with the name. I prefer a pink one or an all black one..


Later.

Book Review: Nobody But You

I am a huge fan of Francis Ray but that does not make me a bias reader. I love to read and I will always give you my honest opinion. That being said I really enjoyed this book. I will not give away the book as I have been known to do before. Let me also say that you need to start from the beginning and read every book in the series. That is my personal opinion. You can start with the first series in the Grayson series only but I think you must really start with the Taggerts. If you can not locate one of those books contact me and I will see what I can do. I may let you borrow mine but it will cost you your first born. LOL.

This is so beautiful

This man can do no wrong in my eyes.

What is your TYPE?

What do the men or women you have dated have in common?

I would say all of my guys have been kind of nerdy. A quality that I like alot.

Is there something wrong with a woman who does not wish to marry?

Some one asked me this question today.. As someone who has thought about this question many, many times. Since I have met more and more women who have no desire to marry I think that there is nothing wrong with you.

Although I love the idea of marriage I don't see it happening for myself. I have really only loved two men in my life and if I didn't marry either of them it isn't going to happen. Unless GOD sends me a man who is patient, dominant, intelligent, ambitious with a little bit of a hustler in him, family oriented with a love of children. It is not going to happen. Oh yeah he has got to make me laugh like Alexis does.

Marriage is not something to enter into lightly but you should not be forced to do it.

So get used to me being single cause that is not going to change.

My belated Father's Day Post

I thought about writing this on father's day but changed my mind. You see my dad knows that he is the greatest father that ever lived (lol Yeah I said it) and I love him. No he is not perfect and as he stated to me earlier today that he has done wrong in the past but asked God for forgiveness. I am naive in thinking my father is perfect I have a sister that grew up without him so I know her vision of him vastly differs from mine and that of my sisters.

But to me he is the Sun and the Moon and if God allowed me to live this life over again, I would change some things but I would ask God to give me the same Dad. Those who know me well, know that we almost lost Dad in a auto accident December of 2001. He spent weeks in the hospital in ICU and only the grace of God brought him through. I don't know how many tear filled prayers I have sent up to God asking him not to take my Dad from us. I believe that he holds us together. There is no quicker way to get us all to agree than to say that it is something that Daddy wants. I am grateful for everyday that I get to see or talk to him.

Rest in Peace

I refrained from posting about Michael Jackson's death because my reaction to it was different from that of other people I know. Although his death saddened me I felt relief for him. I believe that he finally has the peace that the world would never allow him to have.

I read Lisa Marie Presley's statement and unlike some could feel the truth in it. Michael knew no matter what he did there would be no earthly peace for him ever. People are so obsessed with celebrities that people who have no God given talent are now celebrities. I am a person who loves music, especially the lyrics and in music is where I sometimes find my peace. I can not count how many times I have put my Zune on shuffle and just let it play; while I laid back and just let the music do its thing.

You that feeling you get when a song that expresses how you are feeling comes on the radio and it either makes you laugh or cry. If you like me depending on the emotion it invokes I might pull over and just let it play or I might just keep driving and let my emotions flow freely.

My favorite song by Michael Jackson is called "Will you Be There".


There will never be another like him. You can finally rest.