Sewing Class

I took my first sewing class today. I really enjoyed it and I have already signed up for the next class. I learned how to sew a dart. How to sew on buttons of different types.

What do you do?

when you have given someone everything you have inside you and it still is not enough. Do you stay or walk away?
I am so drained emotionally. I mean that I really feel so empty now. All of the ups and downs have taken their toll on me.
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You make me want to give up on loving you, on being your friend. In my heart I feel that no matter what I do it will never be enough. If you want me you are going to have to come and get me because me coming to you is no longer an option. I have invested alot of time and energy into you. I am done.
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I will not pass up another chance for someone to meet my needs. He does not make idle promises. He communicates effectively. He loves me unconditionally. He does what he says he will do.

But I am a fool, because I love you. But even a fool can see the sun on a cloudy day if they look hard enough. He is the sun and I fear that if I continue to put him off he will sun on someone else's day. If you don't step up, I will be gone. Forever!

Just a little bit of Fear

Sometimes I feel like the bravest person in the world and other times I feel like the biggest chicken. I am embarking on a life changing event. For the first time in my life I am going to be sharing my life with someone else.

Can I say that I am afraid? Because I am. When I am afraid of something my imagination runs overboard and i think of a million reasons why I should not do whatever it is.

I know that I am a chicken at times but dang it who would not be. I have been on my own for awhile now, never really co-habitating with anyone.

Okay I better move on to something else or I am going to find a thousand reasons why this won't work.

You are my Friend and I love You

I realize that not everyone is blessed to have great friends but I consider myself to be more than blessed. It is said that the measure of a man is by the friends he keeps.
Because I never get a chance to say this to you, I love you.

Kell: I love you because from the moment we met I could always be myself with you. No matter what I know that you will here for me and I love you for that. We have been through alot together and I would not trade you for anything in the world.

She - THere is so much that I could say about Shelia but I will say that very few people know how great of a person you really are. You are that person that I can go to when I am afraid or I am doubting myself. You are more than my friend you are family. I pray for you all of the time, I pray that God gives you the desires of your heart because whenever I need you you always come through. I love you as my friend and my sister.

Deeva - You keep me on toes and no matter how much time goes between our conversations or late night girl talks I know that you are my friend. I know that your heart is so much bigger than most people can imagine. I love you because no matter what happens in my life you always encourage me. You never allow me to feel sorry for myself.
I love you, simply because you are who you and you never apologize for that.

Keiis: We have been friends for a long time now, and having you as a friend keeps my mind sharp and my eye on the prize. You are destined for great things and I can not wait to see you shine. I got my shades ready.

Courtney: Although you are my sister and not my friend, I love you so much. You are becoming a great woman and I am enjoying watching you come into your own. (thank you for the jordans by the way, they look good on me) I hope that my daughter is just like you, minus the attitude and the fly mouth, But intelligent and self assured. If I could give you any advice it would be live your life to the fullest and follow your dreams no matter what.


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10 Things you wish you could say to ten different people:

1. I love you and hate you at the same time.
2. You complain way too damn much
3. You should be mine!!
4. You should support me
5. I am not asking for your permission to live my life.
6. I want to leave you alone forever.
7. I love you too much to leave
8. You are not ready for another relationship
9. Come to me, where you belong
10. I am so proud of you

9 Things about yourself
1. I love to read.
2. I want to be a writer more than anything.
3. I need my daddy to live forever.
4. I am a diehard Jayz fan.
5. I am spoiled and I know it.
6. I can be your best friend and your worst enemy.
7. I will never quit.
8. I love to learn.
9. I love to be loved

8 Ways to win my heart (if it wasn't already won)
1. Believe in God (mine or your own).
2. Ability to communicate well and have really good conversations.
3. love me .
4. Make me feel safe.
5. Compliment me.
6. Love kids.
7. Be honest.
8. Hold me tight.

7 Things that cross my mind a lot
1. Is Sandra finally at peace?
2. Will I die before becoming a mom?
3. Is it time to let go for good?
4. Will I ever find the child got has for me to adopt?
5. It is wrong to want him to get a divorce.
6. Am I ever going to learn to sew?
7. Thank you Jesus

6 Thing I do before I fall asleep
1. Check email.
2. Check facebook.
3. Check myspace.
4. read the ybf.
5. Read the sewing blogs (Adrienne, Erica, Mimi and Cidell are favorites.
6. drink a coke


5 People I couldn't live without
1. Daddy/Courtney
2. Kell
3. She
4. Alexis
5. Fahim

4 Things I am wearing right now
1. a white men's undershit
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3 Songs that fit my life perfectly
1. Still in Love - New Edition
2. Still Standing - Monica
3. Never Would Have Made it - Marvin Sapp

2 Thing I want to do before I die
1. Get married.
2. Have kids.

1 Confession
I rebel against all who want to box me in.