such a quiet day

Who would have ever thought that I would be a mommy. I can not wait until the little guy moves in. I am trying to remain patient. I know that GOD would not bring me this far and leave me. I truly believe that if something goes wrong I will abandon my journey to adopt. That would be a shame but I would.

I really need this. I have a confession to make. For years I have despised the holiday season. Mostly because it hurt so mush to see the other members of my family with their babies. I always wanted that to be me. And let me tell you something people who think that saying to a childless 30-something woman "you are so lucky that you don't have kids" is a nice thing, you suck. And I mean you suck is the meanest ugliest way possible. You have children and because it is so hard for you, you think that by telling someone else not have kids that you are helping them. You are not helping. But you are ensuring that you and I will never, ever have a pleasant conversation again.

Please stop and think before you say something like this to someone. I hsve had my heart crushed so many times when someone has said something like this. I can not physically have a child and that is painful enough to have to hear from a doctor but for someone to say oh hey you're lucky not to have the opportunity to procreate. Again you suck big time. Just do me and every other childless woman over 30 who actually wants kids and keep your mouth closed......