Discouraged

right now I am feeling like this adoption is not going to happen. No one is telling me anything at this point. No one can answer my questions either.
I am at the point where I am wanting to just let go. No more waiting around for people to tell me nothing. I hate that I have already fallen in love with this beautiful little boy whom I will probably never see again.

I have never felt so discouraged EVER!!!!
If this adoption does not go through I will not go forward with another adoption or even foster anymore. I expect this kind of drama doing foster care but doing a legal risk adoption with no relatives available should be a done deal.

Time to go comfort myself.