Introducing.........

Let me introduce you all to my Princess (yes that is her name) She is a 12 week old Maltipoo (poodle/maltese).. She is the love of my life right now.

She had a first sleep over this weekend while me and the King went to the casino in Louisiana. She was worn out when I picked her up..

Inspired by Adrienne.. Phone dump

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 these are the same shoes as in the pic below.. they are high but comfortable.

He said I deserved these! I got two more yesterday no pics yet

this is the cowboy. my honey. Thank God for him.

I paid $13.00 for these on clearance.. I have never felt sexier.

all in all things are going well with me.. Although I now have vertigo and must use a cane for balance when not with the "cowboy".. I am blessed.
My siblings and I threw a big party for our mom's 60th and she loved it. It was a blast.. Next up is my dad's 65th party and I am the host.. Cross your fingers that I don't blow it

No pics just yet but I did the BIG CHOP

I decided to go natural with my hair so I stopped relaxing it months ago. Right after I got a short cut. So on Tuesday I went to get what was left of the relaxer cut off. Let me say that I am glad that I had a wig with me. I am still not comfortable with my Fro so I will keep wearing the wigs for now.

Hancock Fabrics

So I went to Hancock Fabrics, my first time since I moved back to the Dallas Area.. I went in with a list I made while at work (don't judge me).  Out of the 12 patterns on my list I only got 4. Why? Because although the patterns are on the website they are not in the store.. The pattern draw stopped at M6531(and I know that because I was pissed).. The patterns I wanted more than anything M6555, M6563,6551, and 6558 were not there. So I asked the lady and she looks at me like I grew a second head. Then proceeds to go look in the same place I did, comes back and asks the other lady at the cutting table the same question I asked. "where are these patterns?"

On a regular day I can handle this other clerk although she talks too loud for someone that is indoors. She seemed to think we were making it up. Let me say I do not think she is rude, she just talks too loud and loudtalkers grate my nerves.

Needless to say, I did not get all of my patterns and by the time they have them the sale price of $1.99 will be over. The sad thing is that there is no other Hancock in this part of North Texas so I am stuck between either only going to Joann's or suffering through going into this store.

Sidenote: This Hancock (Plano, TX) just starting sewing classes, and I think the "loud speaker" is the instructor which means I probably won't be taking any classes but someone else probably can.

I got my mojo back!

Not my sewing mojo but my crocheting. I have completed a scarf and I am almost done with a blanket for one of my nieces.

I will probably update this post with the pictures later. The scarf is for a friend

Been around

I can't believe I have not written since Christmas. I have been busy working, trying to find my own place. Hanging out with my crazy family and just loving my life. I am in such a good place emotionally right now and I am so grateful.

I got a kindle fire last month and I don't know what to do with myself besides read and play words with friends. I am a beast on that game trust me. Lol! So if you miss me and you love reading you can cheat me out on my other blog passiononthepages.blogspot.com or on goodreads.. I read everything from the bible to Christian fiction, romance and paranormal. No urban or street lit though. Yes I am a book snob I guess.

Once I find my own place things will settle down for me a little bit more.

Rainy days

Today I saw the raindrops on the window sill and I thought of you. Prayed for your happiness and let you go. My life has begun anew, I have been made whole.

Thanks God.

Hello

i swear i have not abandoned my blog. I have just been getting settled here in Dallas. I landed a job the week after getting here so i have been busy. So about my new job.. Love it! I work for Lancome as a Beauty advisor or customer service if you wish.

I can not believe somebody is paying me to talk about makeup. I have never tried Lancome prior to working there because I did not think it came in my shade and again I was wrong. It is far from cheap but luxury is the name of the game.

I hope all of you are well. And I will be here more often as I am preparing to get my own place and I want to make it cozy and well put together so I can have a place of peace

Randomness

never made decisions when you are angry.

Prayer works.

Don't underestimate me because I will show what I can do.

I drove from New Jersey to Dallas, TX by myself.

I am sorry that you don't know what you did.

Listening is very important.

Judge me if you wish. But walk in my shoes first.

I still believe in love and nothing will change that. Nothing.

I forgive you.

Be willing to change or be willing to lose it all.

I am going to cut all of my hair off again. I can't wait.

It bothers me that you can't see past your own feelings.

I have awesome, crazy sisters.

It is almost ten.. bedtime!

I am back.. Going Home

Being going through some things that I did not want to really speak about before but after tonight's events I have decided to speak my heart.

My marriage is an abusive one, not physically mind you but definitely emotional and verbally. I having been praying and praying and I feel led to return to my family in Texas.

When I actually had to call the police it is most certainly time to let go.

I find the more I talk to God the worst the situation became. Please remember that abuse is not just physical.

I love my husband however, having been a victim of sexual abuse when I was younger I vowed to never be that type of victim again. I shall not be a victim.

So this coming weekend I will take the 25 hour drive back home

Still Around

Just going through somethings. I was admitted to the hospital on Tuesday and spent that day and the next. I am home now and I even went to work.  Trust me driving is the most taxing part of the job. I love where I work.

Today is my born on date!

Every year my birthday makes me so excited. After having a heart attack in April of 2010 my birthday took on more meaning for me. You see I did not think that I would turn 34 or even make to today 35!  But by the Grace of GOD I am here and I am damn happy about it.

Today has made me realize that I have been quite lax in some areas and I have settled for less in others. I am determined to live the best life possible and I am even willing to take this journey alone if that is GOD's will.

Today I am a happy woman because GOD blessed me with another year and I will be eternally grateful. Now I have a kindle full of new books from my amazing friend Keii and I am going to read until my eyes pop out! And I am going to get a pedicure and lay on my sofa while my husband makes me a steak dinner, with home made fries, garlic butter and a salad.

Once again, my friends

It is almost that time of the year! Where no one can tick me off and I become totally and completely self-centered.

Yep you guessed right it is my birthday! Not just any old birthday but my 35th birthday. And before you ask I do not feel old. I feel alive, tested but strong. I am on a journey and I am looking forward to where it goes and what happens along the way.

Somebody told me not to pray for patience anymore so I am now praying for peace and understanding of others.  I am praying for God to quiet my tongue at times. Because my mind and my mouth are quicker and deadlier than bullets at times.

Anyhow!!! 7 more days to the big day and all I want is Amazon gifts cards (told ya'll I love my kindle) Seriously I have an un-natural addiction to it. It is in my purse right next to me at this moment. I sleep with it next to me as well.

whew!

so I got this new part time job at a state office and let tell you it is in the most beautiful location. It is on a island in the Atlantic Ocean called Sandy Hook. it is a part of New Jersey of course. I just did not know that Jersey had that kind of beautiful. Just imagine driving on the freeway and coming to a place where there is nothing in front of you but ocean. And the road curves and you going onto the island.

I drive past the actual beach where people are surfing and boating. But from my office I see the most beautiful water. Although we have a lunch room most employees eat at picnic tables outside.

I am gonna take the camera on Monday and come back with some photos

Hello, is this thing on!

Today has been the most boring day ever!!!
I read an entire book. Played my sims game and look at this maxi dress pattern for the 900th time and even moved it back next to me.

I have so much inspiration but not enough get up and go.

I hope you are all more productive than I am at the moment.

Heat Wave

so the east coast is having a heat wave and while I sit here with two fans blowing cool air on my body, I am bored. With a capital B.  I want to sew the maxi dress that is laying not even a foot away from me but I can not keep my eyes open!

It is currently 81 degrees inside of my apartment and yes I have the air on but these places are old and not well insulated so heat is what you are getting.

Lol! I am typing with my eyes closed. Okay I will be back later.

Crafty goodness

CAN'T STOP MAKING THINGS

she makes some cute things. definitely keeping this near me.

Found a link for this blog on the crafty site http://www.cutoutandkeep.net.

Another DIY blog.. I love to see women doing their own thing!

http://honestlywtf.com/category/diy/page/2/

Day 10 - 10 secrets

Seriously I don't have ten secrets..  But I will tell you a few things that not many people know.

1. I was sexually abused as a child by two different men. This caused me to a have a unnatural sexual addiction. Therapy works! and so does Jesus.

2.  I got pregnant and miscarried at the age of 14. My life would have been much different if I had not.

3. I am a cancer survivor Uterine and Cervical.

4 - 10. that's it. I have no other secrets or at the very least none that I willing to share with the world.

Peace and Blessings to you.

Day 9- 9 loves

Now this really makes me think!

1. my daddy

2. my baby sister Courtney

3. My husband

4. the rest of my family

5. books - reading is what I do.

6. writing - just can't stop

7. being happy

8. good hearted  genuine people

9. GOD

this list is not in any particular order.

I am gonna wrap up this meme tomorrow.

Cooking up a storm

So my husband's laziness has turned me into Paula Deen!  Lately I have been learning to make more Kenyan food to satisfy his cravings.
Mandazi is what I made for him today.  It reminds me of beignets but there is ginger in it and there is no powdered sugar on the outside.

I also make a beef stew that I do not eat but I have learned to make for him quite well. The next thing I plan to me is cheddar drop biscuits. I am hoping these taste as good as my imagination has decided they will.

I will be posting more of the things I make.. Since the blog is all about me I can do what I want. Smooches