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I got my mojo back!

2012-02-10T15:29:00.000-06:00

Not my sewing mojo but my crocheting. I have completed a scarf and I am almost done with a blanket for one of my nieces.

I will probably update this post with the pictures later. The scarf is for a friend

Been around

2012-01-18T00:46:00.002-06:00

I can't believe I have not written since Christmas. I have been busy working, trying to find my own place. Hanging out with my crazy family and just loving my life. I am in such a good place emotionally right now and I am so grateful.

I got a kindle fire last month and I don't know what to do with myself besides read and play words with friends. I am a beast on that game trust me. Lol! So if you miss me and you love reading you can cheat me out on my other blog passiononthepages.blogspot.com or on goodreads.. I read everything from the bible to Christian fiction, romance and paranormal. No urban or street lit though. Yes I am a book snob I guess.

Once I find my own place things will settle down for me a little bit more.

Rainy days

2011-12-21T00:44:00.001-06:00

Today I saw the raindrops on the window sill and I thought of you. Prayed for your happiness and let you go. My life has begun anew, I have been made whole.

Thanks God.

Hello

2011-12-03T19:30:00.000-06:00

i swear i have not abandoned my blog. I have just been getting settled here in Dallas. I landed a job the week after getting here so i have been busy. So about my new job.. Love it! I work for Lancome as a Beauty advisor or customer service if you wish.

I can not believe somebody is paying me to talk about makeup. I have never tried Lancome prior to working there because I did not think it came in my shade and again I was wrong. It is far from cheap but luxury is the name of the game.

I hope all of you are well. And I will be here more often as I am preparing to get my own place and I want to make it cozy and well put together so I can have a place of peace

Randomness

2011-11-09T20:49:00.000-06:00

never made decisions when you are angry.

Prayer works.

Don't underestimate me because I will show what I can do.

I drove from New Jersey to Dallas, TX by myself.

I am sorry that you don't know what you did.

Listening is very important.

Judge me if you wish. But walk in my shoes first.

I still believe in love and nothing will change that. Nothing.

I forgive you.

Be willing to change or be willing to lose it all.

I am going to cut all of my hair off again. I can't wait.

It bothers me that you can't see past your own feelings.

I have awesome, crazy sisters.

It is almost ten.. bedtime!

I am back.. Going Home

2011-11-01T22:48:00.000-05:00

Being going through some things that I did not want to really speak about before but after tonight's events I have decided to speak my heart.

My marriage is an abusive one, not physically mind you but definitely emotional and verbally. I having been praying and praying and I feel led to return to my family in Texas.

When I actually had to call the police it is most certainly time to let go.

I find the more I talk to God the worst the situation became. Please remember that abuse is not just physical.

I love my husband however, having been a victim of sexual abuse when I was younger I vowed to never be that type of victim again. I shall not be a victim.

So this coming weekend I will take the 25 hour drive back home

Still Around

2011-09-29T20:20:00.000-05:00

Just going through somethings. I was admitted to the hospital on Tuesday and spent that day and the next. I am home now and I even went to work. Trust me driving is the most taxing part of the job. I love where I work.

Today is my born on date!

2011-08-19T08:23:00.000-05:00

Every year my birthday makes me so excited. After having a heart attack in April of 2010 my birthday took on more meaning for me. You see I did not think that I would turn 34 or even make to today 35! But by the Grace of GOD I am here and I am damn happy about it.

Today has made me realize that I have been quite lax in some areas and I have settled for less in others. I am determined to live the best life possible and I am even willing to take this journey alone if that is GOD's will.

Today I am a happy woman because GOD blessed me with another year and I will be eternally grateful. Now I have a kindle full of new books from my amazing friend Keii and I am going to read until my eyes pop out! And I am going to get a pedicure and lay on my sofa while my husband makes me a steak dinner, with home made fries, garlic butter and a salad.

Once again, my friends

2011-08-12T10:17:00.000-05:00

It is almost that time of the year! Where no one can tick me off and I become totally and completely self-centered.

Yep you guessed right it is my birthday! Not just any old birthday but my 35th birthday. And before you ask I do not feel old. I feel alive, tested but strong. I am on a journey and I am looking forward to where it goes and what happens along the way.

Somebody told me not to pray for patience anymore so I am now praying for peace and understanding of others. I am praying for God to quiet my tongue at times. Because my mind and my mouth are quicker and deadlier than bullets at times.

Anyhow!!! 7 more days to the big day and all I want is Amazon gifts cards (told ya'll I love my kindle) Seriously I have an un-natural addiction to it. It is in my purse right next to me at this moment. I sleep with it next to me as well.

whew!

2011-08-06T09:20:00.000-05:00

so I got this new part time job at a state office and let tell you it is in the most beautiful location. It is on a island in the Atlantic Ocean called Sandy Hook. it is a part of New Jersey of course. I just did not know that Jersey had that kind of beautiful. Just imagine driving on the freeway and coming to a place where there is nothing in front of you but ocean. And the road curves and you going onto the island.

I drive past the actual beach where people are surfing and boating. But from my office I see the most beautiful water. Although we have a lunch room most employees eat at picnic tables outside.

I am gonna take the camera on Monday and come back with some photos

Hello, is this thing on!

2011-07-24T20:06:00.000-05:00

Today has been the most boring day ever!!!
I read an entire book. Played my sims game and look at this maxi dress pattern for the 900th time and even moved it back next to me.

I have so much inspiration but not enough get up and go.

I hope you are all more productive than I am at the moment.

Heat Wave

2011-07-23T16:16:00.000-05:00

so the east coast is having a heat wave and while I sit here with two fans blowing cool air on my body, I am bored. With a capital B. I want to sew the maxi dress that is laying not even a foot away from me but I can not keep my eyes open!

It is currently 81 degrees inside of my apartment and yes I have the air on but these places are old and not well insulated so heat is what you are getting.

Lol! I am typing with my eyes closed. Okay I will be back later.

Crafty goodness

2011-07-11T15:18:00.000-05:00

CAN'T STOP MAKING THINGS

she makes some cute things. definitely keeping this near me.

Found a link for this blog on the crafty site http://www.cutoutandkeep.net.

Another DIY blog.. I love to see women doing their own thing!

http://honestlywtf.com/category/diy/page/2/

Day 10 - 10 secrets

2011-07-11T10:30:00.000-05:00

Seriously I don't have ten secrets.. But I will tell you a few things that not many people know.

1. I was sexually abused as a child by two different men. This caused me to a have a unnatural sexual addiction. Therapy works! and so does Jesus.

2. I got pregnant and miscarried at the age of 14. My life would have been much different if I had not.

3. I am a cancer survivor Uterine and Cervical.

4 - 10. that's it. I have no other secrets or at the very least none that I willing to share with the world.

Peace and Blessings to you.

Day 9- 9 loves

2011-07-10T20:51:00.000-05:00

Now this really makes me think!

1. my daddy

2. my baby sister Courtney

3. My husband

4. the rest of my family

5. books - reading is what I do.

6. writing - just can't stop

7. being happy

8. good hearted genuine people

9. GOD

this list is not in any particular order.

I am gonna wrap up this meme tomorrow.

Cooking up a storm

2011-07-03T20:09:00.000-05:00

So my husband's laziness has turned me into Paula Deen! Lately I have been learning to make more Kenyan food to satisfy his cravings.
Mandazi is what I made for him today. It reminds me of beignets but there is ginger in it and there is no powdered sugar on the outside.

I also make a beef stew that I do not eat but I have learned to make for him quite well. The next thing I plan to me is cheddar drop biscuits. I am hoping these taste as good as my imagination has decided they will.

I will be posting more of the things I make.. Since the blog is all about me I can do what I want. Smooches

day 8 - 8 fears

2011-07-02T22:22:00.000-05:00

hmm now see I am not a vulnerable chick so I don't like exposing my fears...
But..

1. Not being a mother

2. Not ever finishing my book.

3. Not completing college this go around.

4. That I would rather be alone sometimes.. ( I mean, like being able to go into the bathroom with someone asking me a question)

5. That my fears will get the best of me.

6. That my husband will ask to see this blog! (lol)

7. Not being a mother.

8. That I won't know how to be a mother. (although I know this fear is unfounded)

9. can you tell I really want my own kid. rather adopt than get pregnant though. Just saying.

10. That I won't stay. (no explanation given)

Day 7 of 10 day challenge: 7 wants

2011-06-27T20:03:00.000-05:00

7 things I want:

1. A child of my own, don't care if I birth it, adopt it or someone leaves it on my doorstep. Just want to be a mommy.

2. To be healthy enough to raise said child.

3. A lasting marriage.

4. A better relationship with GOD.

5. to get a degree in Social Work

6. to understand my MIL (not gonna happen)

7. Did I mention that I want to be a mommy because that is important.

Don't be afraid to comment.

So guess who joined a gym?

2011-06-23T00:19:00.000-05:00

Yep!

That would be me. Don't even know why I did it. I went with my husband because he wanted to change gyms and some idiot with a voice that sounds like mine said. Oh I think I should join too. It doesn't heart that there is a movie theatre in the gym so you can watch movies while doing cardio.
Wish me luck

Day 6 of 10 day Challenge - 6 places I love

2011-06-22T22:44:00.000-05:00

6 places I love:

New Orleans, LA (this will always be my home and there is no place like it in the world)

San Antonio, TX - I lived there for three years, it is a beautiful place and I met some awesome people there.

The mall - self explanatory

my closet- because everything in it is mine

the library - because I love books

Nairobi, Kenya - birthplace of my husband and a place we will be traveling too quite soon.

Day 5 of 10 Day Challenge: 5 foods

2011-06-19T11:45:00.000-05:00

5 foods I love:

spicy nacho doritos

baked mac n' cheese

spaghetti and meatballs

seafood gumbo

pot roast with gravy, rice and fried corn (it has to be the complete meal)

If you noticed that there are no sweets listed it is because I rarely eat sweet things. Occasionally I will eat brownies

Day 4 of 10 Day Challenge

2011-06-18T11:57:00.002-05:00

4 books

Now talk about hard!
So in no particular order.

1. Topaz by Beverly Jenkins

2. The Heart of a Falcon by Francis Ray

3. Bring on the Blessings by Beverly Jenkins

4. The Heart of a Woman by Maya Angelou

Day 3 of the 10 day challenge - 3 Films

2011-06-17T11:50:00.000-05:00

Three films I love... let's see

Searching for Bobby Fisher - this movie is so awesome you have to see it.

The Color Purple - you should already know

Harry Potter and the Sorcerer's Stone - this one is for the nerd in me

Day 2 - Two Songs

2011-06-16T10:21:00.000-05:00

I would never be able to choose two songs that are my favorites. Seriously I have over 14,000 songs on my zune right now.

So the song above I have been listening to almost daily. It is called Colder Weather by the Zac Brown Band. Just listen to the lyrics.

Now this song is my absolute favorite song, EVER. Everything comes after this song.

Day One of Ten day Challenge

2011-06-15T08:09:00.000-05:00

Not the best quality but I love this picture because it is me in my natural form. No makeup, no hiding. I love who I see in the mirror.

10 DAY CHALLENGE

2011-06-14T20:19:00.002-05:00

okay Adrienne I am in! starting tomorrow

randomness June 7th

2011-06-07T22:25:00.001-05:00

1. Ain't it funny when someone does you wrong and they can't admit to it they try to act like it didn't happen.

2. You crossed the line with me some time ago. There is no coming back. You burnt that bridge to the ground.

3. I am abundantly blessed. And I am thankful.

4. I hit my husband with a aluminum pan.. You know the throwaway kind. He will never sneak up on me again.

5. I have a mean karate chop!

6. When I am angry there is no hiding it. I don't try.

7. My parents sent me a gift that I appreciate so much.

8. You no longer make me angry. I simply no longer care.

9. I bought a maxi dress. It looks good on me. Hubby loves it!

10. Must make more maxi dresses.

11. why do people think they can get away with mistreating you?

12. Wrong person.

13. I love my baby sister. She makes me laugh on the regular. There is no one like her.

14. I miss seeing her.

15 I think I am ready for a baby.. LOL (can't believe I said that)

16. I just ordered the manual for my new old sewing machine from the 60's

17. Music is the only thing besides GOD that can soothe my soul. I do not limit myself by genre.

18 My favorite song of the moment is Colder Weather by The Zac Brown Band.. take a listen or just watch it or both

19. Anthony can be so sweet but he tries to be hard with me. It never works. I know his weakness. ME! Lol.

20. I hurt for him at times.

21. It hard to watch someone you love be used so yes I will jump into a situation to protect him.

22. My hubby told me that I "make him better". I said " I know". You must love me.

23. Butter pecan ice cream is so good on a cone!

24. I got a pink netbook. LOVE IT>

25. Did I say I am blessed. And grateful.

hey everyone!

2011-06-01T19:29:00.000-05:00

Just a quick shout out! Been working so hard but now my assignment has ended and I am home until a new one comes about. There has been much drama on the home front between my husband and his mother. He has now asked her to move out. Of course, it is all my fault although I did not engage in this battle at all. I prayed the whole time. Every time he would tell me about their arguements I would just hum. Lol! But in the end I kept my word that I would leave it to GOD.

I am not a heartless person but you can not walk past me in my house and not speak even when spoken to. Burn up my good pots (wedding gifts) and then get mad at me for being mad about my pots. Anyway, I can truly stand (or sit) here and I say that this is her own doing. Did I mention she tried to introduce my husband to another woman that she believes is more suitable as his wife, to my house. *deep breath*

He was shocked as well. I wasn't. So I will be helping her move out of my house this weekend. See how nice I am.

Love ya'll

Will be back soon. I have pictures to share of some cute outfits I bought! yes bought! But I did learn that I can wear a maxi dress so I am cutting one out similar to one that i bought.

Welcome to all of the people who recently started following my blog..

still here

2011-05-20T19:31:00.000-05:00

the commute to and from work has been killing my energy.
I hope all of you are doing well.
I am still catching up on my blog readings

first project

2011-03-27T11:30:00.000-05:00

I am working on M5523 view D, like the one Adrienne made on her blog. I am using a black stretch twill cotton twill in black... (it is 96% cotton and 4% lycra).

Now let's see if I can get this finished since my husband likes to interrupt me everytime I try to do something for me only...

I got my mojo back!

2011-03-21T13:03:00.000-05:00

So my husband brought home a sewing table, I opened it up and guess what I found?

and it sews very well. I need to order a manual for it. My research shows that it is from 1969. Threading it is very complicated and I am gonna need a diagram.. I found one online. So now what do I sew first

need inspiration...here is mine

2011-03-16T15:18:00.000-05:00

This is Kenyan Fashion I love the print on the fabric!

from Philippine Fashion

Jakarta, Indonesia fashion.. I heart their style and beauty.

Not all of these pictures are recent.

I even love the yellow shoes!

This is from a Chinese Designer

Reynald Arnaldo Philippine Designer

Somebody should have warned me!

2011-03-16T09:47:00.000-05:00

Nobody told me what marriage would be like. Sometimes I sit and watch this man do things because he reminds me of those bad little boys on the school yard. I am always drying the counter in the bathroom because he leaves water everywhere. Furthermore I am always drying his face and hands because like he told me last night he likes to air dry. LOL.

We have serious cultural differences that make him very stoic at times but then there are times when he is so silly that I hurt myself laughing at him. We argue and I swear at times I could just wring his neck and then he does something that makes me love him all over again. (okay this is not supposed to be a love story).

My husband has been home less than a week and has torn up more things than I can count. Tells me that he can not be bothered with the little things like the fact that a plate with gold rim can not go into the microwave.. Lol. so I let him. you should have heard the scream when the sparks started.

It was all a dream!

2011-03-07T23:20:00.000-06:00

tonight my husband told me that he had weird dream about me. so of course I ask him what it was..

He tells me that we were at a hospital because we were having a baby but the baby came out as a small child around 4 years old that could talk and walk. He says that baby looked so weird.

He swears he was not drinking before hand but I am not quite sure,

Randomness 03/07/2010

2011-03-07T13:47:00.001-06:00

1. Ignoring me does not hurt my feelings. Besides you will need me before I need you for anything.

2. Jealousy is very powerful but weak emotion. Build a bridge and get over it.

3. Went to the movies with my hubby and took some pictures in one of those little booths. Put it on the fridge and you have been mad ever since.

4. I can hear everything you say even when you are in your bedroom.

5. Protecting my husband from being hurt does not make me a bitch it makes me a good wife.

6. Our communication has been off the chain lately loving it.

7. Taking your place as the woman of your house is your right when the house is yours.

8. don't you love Fake Christians. They read their bibles all the time but then hurl foul language and condemnation at their own children.

9. The game is over, I can see you clearly and I do NOT like you.

10. Trying to think of a gift to send my step-daughter for her birthday next month. She is in Kenya but I can not think of a thing to get her.

11. I must dye my hair, pronto! Brown!

12. The gray in my hair is out of control.

13. The fake-ness is out of control.

14. Set up a online dating profile for my mother in law! Blame my husband. See below!

15. Why would you stand outside the bedroom while we are playing doctor (lol) that is just sad..

16. Found a new place for the hubby and myself. gonna let the MIL have this one.

17. Played a shooting game at the arcade last night, My accuracy was crazy good my hubby was quite scared. LOL

I got a new job! (part time)

2011-02-28T22:31:00.000-06:00

So I got a new job doing claim processing. It is a part-time job working nights. Tonight was my first night, Seems that someone was a little upset that they got stuck at the bus stop because they assumed I would be here to pick them up.. (no I don't feel bad)

I am so glad to be out of the house. Being a housewife is not for me, well if I had kids I would probably say something different.

I am still looking for another full time job or another part time job for the morning time.

my other blog

2011-02-27T21:02:00.000-06:00

please check out my other blog that is where all my book reviews are.. I am playing catch up because I have read about 20 books in the last two months,

http://passiononthepages.blogspot.com

color

2011-02-24T16:47:00.000-06:00

This green has my name all over it. Oddly I have never worn a solid yellow color ever but I am thinking that if I can pull it off this dress would be it.

Thinking, Pondering, Considering

2011-02-02T22:19:00.000-06:00

Becoming a foster parent in New Jersey. I miss being a foster parent, now only to convince my hubby that it is a good idea. I do not relish going through the process again but the payoff is amazing. I wish I could post pictures of my former foster children but I signed a contract not to do so..

view from my window

2011-02-02T21:16:00.000-06:00

I took these pictures from my balconey. I have pictures of the ice that is currently on the ground but stayed tuned for the storm on Saturday

Books

2011-02-02T20:42:00.000-06:00

Yesterday I read two books both by Beverly Jenkins, the first is called Blessings and the other is called "Bring On The Blessings" and I loved both of the books and yes the books are connected. I would recommend these books to anyone. The major theme is forgiveness and what a second chance does for someone.

Check them out

battered and bruised

2011-02-02T20:38:00.002-06:00

If we are friends on facebook then you already know I had a unfortunate meeting with some ice today and I have been on the couch all day since then. I am feeling better and I am praying that the ice melts by Friday because I got things to do.

snow

2011-01-26T12:16:00.000-06:00

I am so tired of seeing snow, I know everyone thinks oh it's the east coast and they are used to it. Apparently not, because when I turn on the news they are complaining as much as I am.
There was not supposed to be snow until tomorrow but I woke up to it this morning and there will be more tonight and on friday. Thankfully I got my diet coke stash, popcorn and my dvr.
Does anyone else purposely not watch their shows so you can something to watch on dvr later.. Lol. I know I am crazy..
I had more MIL drama but I decided to take control of the situation myself instead of letting the hubby handle it. Checked, respectfully, but checked.
Barbara Ann did not raise no punks!

until later ladies

Randomness 01-20-2011

2011-01-20T15:09:00.000-06:00

1. yes I ignored you. not on purpose but I would have anyway.

2. I am taking you to Jesus, because I just can't.

3. Jealousy is the weakest emotion known to man, it must stop.

4. I make it look easy but being me is not for the faint of heart.
5. my husband has been taking me on random dates.

6. Loves him.

7. Alot.

8. Got him drunk last night to see how he would act. Let me tell you it was funny... damn funny.

9. I love when he is asleep I play with his eyelashes.

10. through the good and the bad.. God chose the right man for me.

11. you think you are slick but not slicker than me.

12. Do not believe in telling women about my man's skills. You must think I am stupid. Naw honey!

13. You really don't know me.

14. You are the only person who talks to GOD so stop acting like you are his personal assistant.

15. found a sewing table.. can't get it up the stairs though.. Lol.. it is a conspiracy

Book Reviews

2011-01-14T18:32:00.000-06:00

If you are not aware I do book reviews but they are posted on my second blog. I have read four books in the last two days with many more to come.
I am sick so I have nothing else to do.

Smooches my pretties *in my wicked witch voice*

oh it is.. www.passiononthepages.blogspot.com

My evil twin is real

2011-01-13T15:28:00.000-06:00

I am going to stop typing my random thoughts post while I am extremely sleepy. I just re-read it. But I really do have a evil twin and she is such a heifer.
She does mean things to my hubby like hide the remote and then laugh she hard that it hurts my stomach while he looks for it.
She even hides the mail because she knows that he is gonna freak if he can't find it. Then puts it somewhere he already looked for it so he thinks he is crazy.

She is the reason that I am frantically looking for a job because I can control her when I have things to do but when boredom sets in...

Randomn Thoughts

2011-01-12T23:38:00.000-06:00

1. People are so selfish.

2. If I am picking you up, how are you gonna not be ready to go.

3. I am not a taxi driver.

4. See above.

5. No, I will not wait for you to finish getting your hair done so I can drive you somewhere else.

6. I am not a valet, chauffer or a butler.

7. I am not mean I just don't like you is all.

8. I mean that.

9. Sincerely mean that.

10. Can you tell I mean it?

11. loves my hubby.

12. Not going to shovel snow off the car.

13. Yes i can see the snow, but I am not shoveling it.

14. I will warm you up after you shovel it though.

15. Why is it, you only come out to shovel when you see my hubby is out there.

16. I see everything.

17. My hubby keeps asking me to behave.. hmm

18. Gonna have to work harder at suppressing my evil twin.

19. Not going to YOUR church does not make us heathens.

20. You must not know 'bout me!

21. I think I have forgotten how to sew. It has been months.

22. Very envious of the dresses I have been seeing.

23. I walked through the snow to bring you your groceries. And yes I was pissed.

24. Next time, don't wear ballerina flats outside in the snow.

Must go to sleep now.

UGHHHHHHHHHHHHH ! So bored

2011-01-05T20:15:00.000-06:00

*is this thing on?*

If my darling husband does not find a table of some sort to put my sewing machine on he is going to come up missing. That is all.

New day

2010-12-27T09:40:00.001-06:00

I deleted my previous post about my Christmas with my mother in law. I have prayed about the situation and decided to give it to God.
I have come too far to allow someone to block my blessings by making me act ugly.

Thanks Adrienne!

Missing Link

2010-12-24T08:57:00.000-06:00

Dear San

Two years ago today, God took you away from us because he had a greater need for you in heaven. Your presence here is sorely missed and I wonder if you know just how much.

Last month I got married and had all of the girls together again and the only thing missing was you. We sat around and talked about how things were supposed to be, who was gonna marry first and have kids first but there was a bigger plan in the works. Mariah acts so much like you and it amazes me that she is more like you than Vee.
In case you don't know I moved away from the girls but it does not lessen the pain of not being able to call you or see or even makes me forget that you are gone.
There were so many times when I wanted to call you so we could go to IHOP in the middle of the night like we did so many times.
San, I am so glad that you are no longer suffering and that you are resting at the feet of the master. Just know that we keep your spirit alive all of the time not just today. I love you still and one day we will have the whole crew together again and maybe God will let us drink wine and tell funny stories, while we laugh uncontrollably.
Merry Christmas honey
You are in the best place
love Carla

Merry Christmas

2010-12-22T13:44:00.000-06:00

I hope that you all have the best Christmas ever. I am sincerely missing my loved ones right now. My hubby will be working on Christmas but hopes to get away so we can spend a little time together.
I will be meeting my mother in law for the first time in person in the next day or two. If you can sense my apprehension you are correct. The fact that the two of us will be alone in the condo does not sit well with me. I am very standoffish when meeting new people and definitely do not like having them in my space.

So pray for me. Lol.
I already know what my gift is because all I wanted was a Kindle so I know that is what I got.. Now to get my hands on it.. Lol
I can't wait to see what you ladies get for gifts

Just another day in the neighborhood

2010-12-14T17:31:00.000-06:00

So I am still playing housewife, pretty much for myself because the hubby gets home late at night. I have finally started getting some feedback on my job search and have three interviews set up this week starting tomorrow so a busy week it will be.
I am currently sitting here with a head full of rollers which is gonna surprise the hubby because he likes my hair curly.
I hope all you ladies are having a good week so far..
Not being able to sew is driving me into a funk.

Christmas Wish List

2010-12-06T18:04:00.000-06:00

these are burberry

I heart these!

I am in love with this.

i have wanted this so long! in this color

kitchenaid attachments

a girl has simple dreams. lol

inspirational dresses 2

2010-12-04T19:41:00.000-06:00

Now this is a awesome NYE dress

love this Qristyl Frazier dress... a cute New Year's Eve option

would love to make this in a red

I am not a big fan of ponte knit but I will give it a try in this color.

I would wear this every day.. lol how sexy it looks.. also a Qristyl Frazier design

so sexy is the theme of the day.

Inspirational dresses

2010-12-04T19:17:00.000-06:00

I love this dress... it is too hot!!!!!!!

here it is in a different print..

Chilling and updates

2010-12-01T21:08:00.000-06:00

My honey bought me a new tv to replace the one I had to leave behind in Texas.. I call it the "big ass tv", just too doggone big.
I am dying for a place to set up my sewing machine ASAP.

my brother, me and my hubby

my brother Chris and hubby *white shirt*

right to left: My girls SheShe, Vera, me Brandy and up front my bestie Kell

me and my baby sister Coco Crispies (what I call her)

right to left: brother, hubby, brother in law brother and friend Ra and in the center my nephew Jojo

just a few of the 80 plus pictures taken.
It is interesting being married and everyday is a new learning experience. But it is going well. I wore a wrap dress that I have for the wedding (it is actually the only dress I own). I have been seeing these knit pencil skirts and I really want a few. The hubby states I should wear more dresses so a few wrap dresses would be cool but I need the right patterns. Any suggestions, take in mind I do not know how to grade up patterns just yet?

Hello Ladies

2010-11-26T14:25:00.000-06:00

Okay so I have been officially married for one week and things are going well.. Still trying to settle in and get the house together. Just got the internet and cable today so the job hunt has officially been kicked off.

How has everyone been?

pictures

2010-11-16T15:00:00.000-06:00

I tried to take the best pictures I could.. but here is my engagement ring.. The wedding band is apart of the set. We also got our license today and our wedding is Friday at 12noon

Hello World (okay Hello Ladies)

2010-11-15T15:04:00.000-06:00

I am anxiously awaiting Mr.A's arrival he was supposed to fly stand by on a buddy past but since there were folks waiting since Saturday did not happen. The airline told him to try again tomorrow but he was not having that. He purchased a ticket and is in route as we speak or as I type this.
I am so sleeply he arrived at the airport around 4am and kept calling me every few minutes so no sleep for me. Every time I drifted off he woke me up. So as it stands I wil pick him up tonight at 815

Randomness 11-10-2010

2010-11-10T03:01:00.000-06:00

1. So you are simply gonna squat in my apartment just to spike your son for getting married.

2. Why is my mother in law beefing with me and we are not even married yet.

3. Quit her job and decided that she needed to move in with her son.

4. This is why I am stressed.

5. If your son refuses to come home because you are there, things are not okay.

6. Is it wrong for me to put my mother in law out as soon as I get to Jersey.

7. I promise that is the plan.

8. Fiance is too timid to do it, he fusses and refuses to sleep there because she is there.. umm we are paying for this apartment..

9. Why would you hang your panties up in the bathroom of someone else's apartment. You are a squatter.

10. I quit drinking more than a year ago, guess what I am craving... WINE.

11. I am gonna finish my dress but probably not wear it.. Don't like how it is looking.. for instance it does not say to cut the front skirt on the fold but the instructions act as if that is a given... ugh

12. Please don't think I am mean but I don't care for vindicative people and my soon to be mother in law is punishing us for getting married.

13. She thinks I am sweet and timid.

14. Somebody done told her wrong. i am a beast when you cross me or hurt someone I love.

15. I can mean or I can kill you with kindness.. She is gonna get a mixture of the two.

16. This is starting to making me feel a lot better, it also helps that I am listening to Ledisi *Higher Than This*

17. first thing I have planned when I get to Jersey.. going to Manhattan to eat at the Mesa Grill (loves me some Bobby Flay)

18. Then on to the Garment District for fabric and then post about it. The best thing is I will get to sew more and be with the hubby.

19. So I want to hyphenate my last name.. the man is not having it.. I have to think of a name for him because I don't like calling him Tony because everybody else does..

20. I also want a dog which he claims we will discuss later.. he is not gonna win this arguement.. lol

You're The One

2010-11-08T23:17:00.002-06:00

So in love with this song.

dress updated

2010-11-08T02:00:00.001-06:00

Everything that can go wrong, has.

First I was trying to change the needle and it dropped down into the needle plate into the bottom of my machine and then I realized that I bought the wrong darn needle.

So I get the new needle today. Put what I thought was the correct needle in and it broke. So I got up and walked away from it.

Later, (after looking at the manual on how to install the needle) I go back to it.. sewed the front bodice together, totally ignoring the instruction.. there is supposed to be a v-neck.. then unpicked the stitches.. Guess what I unpicked the wrong end. I took it completely apart and left it on the table.. I am gonna finish this dress if i don't go mad first.

Update on dress

2010-11-05T21:38:00.000-05:00

So I got my dress all cut out.. All I have to do is put it together. Which I am gonna start doing in the morning.. Tonight I am gonna finish packing. Or purging is the better word

Hey ya'll

2010-10-31T18:08:00.000-05:00

So, I am still under the weather and learned a valuable lesson, nyquil and benadryl liquid should not be combined..

My honey and I are trying to keep it together but we are both super excited about getting married and finally being together again.

Last night was my last night at Sears and I was so excited to get out of there. I ordered some new fabric for the dress for the wedding because the knit I got is just too thin. I ordered a Ponte knit which is thicker and it is black. Yes I am getting married in a black dress, trust me I can not wear white. (lol)

Soon as it arrives I will be cutting the dress out. I have 18 days until the wedding.

By the way we are registered if you want to send a gift.. I am praying that someone gets me that Kitchen Aid Artisan mixer, I must have it... or you can make a donation in our honor to the Breast Cancer Charity of your choice.

http://www.target.com/registry/wedding/013399700534798

Also I must remember to tell my Uncle Marshall how wrong he was. Years ago he told me that if I was holding out to get a man like my father that I needed to give it up because it would never happen. So when I see him I am gonna tell him that he was so wrong. I prayed for a man like my daddy and God has blessed me.

My inspirational photos

2010-10-27T22:59:00.000-05:00

I love clothes I mean really love clothes hence the reason I am still not fully packed. I have three 33 gallon garbage bags filled with clothes to donate and I still have not made it to the closet.

I can go a full two months without doing laundry. Yes I know I have a problem. I purchased the fabric for my dress and will begin sewing it when it gets here... I found nightie to wear for the wedding night. I already owned it but no one has ever seen me in it because I wore it one night *for myself* and the strap broke and I never fixed it.. But it is fixed now and it has a matching robe.

I want to sew because other things are pressing.. i did try making a caftan but seriously what a wadder.. It was wayyy too big.. and it reminded me of a muu-muu.

the two dresses above are Calvin Klein plus size dresses.

this will be made by me

the four dresses above are by Jibri also a plus size designer

and my favorite plus size designer ever is Monif C.. Not afraid of color and that convertible dress is the best.. these pictures showcase the way I want to dress and the reason I started sewing. I wear pants mostly because my legs are extremely smaller than my upper body but I think skirts and dresses may bring more balance to my look....

all photos are from Macys.com, jibri.com and monifc.com

Day 7 Lust

2010-10-21T02:59:00.000-05:00

Seven love secrets

1. Stay true to who you are.

2. If you start out compromising your wants and needs you will be severely unhappy.

3. Play dress up (so not kidding about this)

4. The kuma sutra is my friend (lol)

5. Communicate effectively.

6. Listen actively. (no thinking of what you want to say just listen)

7. Mean what you say and say what you mean. don't play head games expecting someone to just know what you want and need.

day 6 gluttony

2010-10-20T21:08:00.000-05:00

Seven guilty pleasures

1. Amazing sex.. (we are all grown)

2. Coloring in color books... stress reliever trust me

3. Spongebob

4. Coca cola so addicted

5. peanut m&ms

6. more sex... *don't look at me like that*

7. can not think of seven

Day 5 - Greed

2010-10-18T19:03:00.000-05:00

Seven worldly desires

1. 1965 Ford Mustang (either yellow or red)

2. A five bedroom house in the country (victorian or a farm house)

3. a small house in West Virginia

4. All expense paid trip to Barcelona, Spain

5. a three book deal with Harper-Collins

6. debt - free

7. front row seats to see Jay Z perform song cry with Mary J Blige

Day 4 Sloth- seven things you neglect to do

2010-10-17T02:00:00.000-05:00

1. paint my nails.. always buy polish hardly ever paint my nails.

2. say I am sorry.

3. put myself first ( i need to start doing this)

4. use my full potential I have talents most people don't even know about

5. clean my room.. i can clean the whole house but when I get to my room I am pooped.

6. have more fun.

7. do what makes me happy..

Day 3 Wrath

2010-10-16T14:19:00.000-05:00

Seven things that piss you off.

1. Bullies.

2. People who are not fit to raise kids but keep having them.

3. Mean spirited people.

4.men who think I am stupid just because I am a big girl.

5. Complete selfishness.

6. Jealousy (people who despise you just for doing you)

7. certain people in my family.

Day 2 Envy

2010-10-15T00:55:00.000-05:00

Seven things you lack and covet.

1. Advanced sewing skills.

2. A Bachelor degree ( I shall have this trust me)

3. A Serger

4. a child of my own

5. Patience

6. a trip to Australia

7. A pair of Christian Loboutin's

Day 1 - Pride

2010-10-14T02:07:00.000-05:00

Seven great things about myself.

1. I am smarter than the average bear (lol.)
2. I love to love and I have a great capacity for it..
3. I am true to myself even when others do not understand my motives.
4. I am awesome person.
5. I am a great friend.
6. I will never tell you what you want to hear, I just can't.
7. I am not a quitter. Even if I lose I just keep coming right back at you.

Following this meme on Adrienne's blog..

2010-10-14T02:04:00.001-05:00

The 7 Deadly Sins...
Day 1 - Pride. Seven great things about yourself.
Day 2 - Envy. Seven things you lack and covet.
Day 3 - Wrath. Seven things that piss you off.
Day 4 - Sloth. Seven things you neglect to do.
Day 5 - Greed. Seven worldly material desires.
Day 6 - Gluttony. Seven guilty pleasures.
Day 7 - Lust. Seven love secrets

slowly going insane (Four weeks)

2010-10-13T00:54:00.000-05:00

I think I may have lost my mind and I have no idea where I was when it happened. First why am I am making this dress instead of buying it? Don't I remember that I am getting married and then moving across the country in the same week.
So I am seriously considering purchasing a maxi dress that is on sale on swakdesigns.com http://www.swakdesigns.com/p-660-goddess-plus-size-maxi-dress.aspx

The packing is so crazy right now and seems never ending. Please pray for me better yet come help me pack.

Smooches

dropping in

2010-10-11T21:59:00.000-05:00

who knew that finding the right fabric for my dress was gonna be so difficult. I am currently considering buying a dress instead just because I have enough to do with packing and purging.

I want to say that for the record I do not need anymore clothing but I have a sickness that does not allow me to stop. I really wanted some jeggings and Sears had them for $10.99 Plus my 20 percent discount so I got a black and grey pair.
Got the heals on my stilettos boots fixed and several pairs of leggings. What I really need is a coat for the New Jersey winter which this southern girl is not used to. And some snow boots. Boots that my honey picked out of me, and in the process vetoed the peacoat I wanted because it was black and white and he said too many women would have the same color. So purple and black it will be...
He claims to hate shopping but I sucker him into every time..

So what is everyone else up to? By the way if you feel the urge to come help me pack I will not turn you away

I should be asleep

2010-10-01T02:53:00.000-05:00

It is funny how you see the changes in people around you when good things happen to you. What a shocker to me when I realized that not everyone that claims to love me is happy about my upcoming wedding. Of course they proclaim their happiness in the beginning but the subtle comments say otherwise. I was having a bad day the other day, you know just regular old PMS and the next thing I know there are a barrage of questions.. for instance, ' oh what happened did you guys break up?"
Seriously I can't just not be in the mood to talk.

See I learned my lesson long ago about telling your friends your business so even if we had a argument I would not have said so. Why would your first thought be the worst I just don't get it. Although I was holding off on my purging I am going to have to start early. See the wedding is in 7 weeks and I don't want to take any anger with me to that day.
So I got the broom and the dustpan and big old trash can I am gonna start cleaning out some people TOday.

Thanks Adrienne

2010-09-29T02:21:00.000-05:00

My blog stats state that most of my blog traffic comes from your blog.
So thank you. People must like our light-hearted banter.

Lol.

God Bless Ladies have a great day

Thanks for the comments Ladies

2010-09-27T23:34:00.001-05:00

Adrienne - yes she is evil and my daddy told me not to let her steal our joy. Since I always do what my daddy says I am gonna to set her straight and then forget she exists.

Aminat - if my sister in law does not bring my fabric from Kenya I will definitely get some from you because he wants me to have a caftan made from some African fabric. I have the pattern already.

Sewgreat - Sorry I don't know your name. He pleaded his case for the lingerie so I picked up a few pieces today. Correction: Ms. Netta I went to your blog so now I know your name. You are really gonna have to blog more. Let's try for once a week.

Nee - Thanks Honey, after I set Ms. Mama straight we are gonna be just fine. Because at 34 I am not going to be walked on by anyone for any reason. I know she is simply jealous and I just want her to give me fifty feet of space.

Randomness (i don't know the date today)

2010-09-25T13:21:00.000-05:00

1. eight weeks until my honey and I are married. So excited.

2. Not excited about my future mother in law

3. Seriously not excited,

4. How can you tell your son that he should not pay child support for his own daughter? What the hell.

5. Thankfully my honey is intelligent and knows that she has lost her ever loving mind.

6. Can you see that she and I will not get along, AT ALL.

7. I am losing friends left and right at the moment but i recognize that the season is over for them.

8. I will admit that I am not the easiest person to get along with however people seem to like me for the most part. Sometimes it is a mystery to me because I am can be downright evil if I don't like you but that seems to make people want to be with me more.. Ugh

9. How can you be mad that I am getting married? We don't get down with each like that. I really thought we were friends. The stupid comments have taken its toll and I don't even care to talk to you anymore.

10. I am addicted to facebook but I will be deleting a lot of people in the upcoming weeks.

11. Seriously I am gonna need help with the mother-in-law thing because I used to people hating me after they have met me not before.

12. Someone said I am supposed to but lingerie for my wedding night. I don't see the point.

13. Why are we fighting over the size of my ring. Shouldn't I get the ring I want? I am just saying. People think I am crazy not to want a big diamond. I would rather have a serger. Lol.

14. I seriously need to call Neecha.

15. I can Not sleep because I am so anxious about moving to New Jersey. Like super anxious.

16. Why are certain people telling me that I am gonna hate it so much. Like people who have never even been to the city I am moving to.. God some people are just killjoys.

17. I decided on a purple dress for my ceremony, ask me if I have found the fabric for a dress that I have eight weeks to make.

18, That reminds me, I just received the fabric I won from Victoria... I will take a picture of it when I come from work. I already know it's gonna be a tunic.

19. Packing sucks.

20. Big time sucks.

21. I do not like clingy people. I really don't.

22. I need 49 feet of personal space. I promise I can hear you from here.

23. People always want to hug me. I think it is my boobs.. Lol.

24. Not just men.

25. My friends are taking bets on when I will get pregnant. I am now taking applications for new friends.

26. You may apply by email.

My wedding dress

2010-09-07T00:53:00.000-05:00

Plus Size Sewing Patterns : Simplicity Patterns : Misses Plus Size Dresses

So since I have been pressured to wear a dress for my upcoming wedding.. .It is the long sleeve maxi dress on the picture (here is hoping that the picture posts). I am the most nontraditional person you will ever meet or meet in your head. Lol. So a simple bridal gown would not do for me.. So I am going to make this dress along with the help of my sister and mother.. I am looking for a deep plum/purple Matte jersey or even silk jersey.. I am splurging here.

So if you know of a place online or a national store where I can find it please let me know.. I want to make sure that the dress is perfect.. I have finally told my family about the wedding and my stomach pains have stopped. Yes I have anxiety issues.

my thoughts right now

2010-09-03T16:48:00.000-05:00

1. why am I losing my voice ugh.

2. My fiance despises one of my friends and I can not blame him. She's sweet but clingy.

3. really clingy.

4. He insists that she needs her own man.

5. tried talking to her about it still not convinced that she gets it.

6. I am so excited that the wedding is almost here, to which I have not a thing to wear. but it will be a civil ceremony.

7. come to think of it, I should probably tell my family that I am getting married lol.

8. Don't judge me you don't know them.

9. Not sure why I am not scared yet. Thinking maybe I am too excited.

10. I will be moving to Monroe, New Jersey, can anybody say fabric shopping in New York, Yay

11. really have to do something with this friend thing cause Mr. A is really not feeling her and says she cannot visit...

12. Dare I say that I am going to sew this weekend.. I am mega excited.

13. For the record, everything that happens in your life is not exciting enough for you to call me 11 times in one day. Seriously I don't even like you like that.

14. Funny thing about not being single, everyman that did not want before suddenly has to tell me he is in love with me.
Too Late

15. I am taken.

16. And no I don't want to hang out with you for old times sake. WTF

17. I stayed up all night with my daddy he was sick. Now I am tired as hell cause I have a cold. hence number 1 in the list

18. Who looks forward to their wedding night more than the wedding.. Lol.. Sorry that was random.. lol

19. why is my phone ringing again... ugh

20. So many people are gonna be shocked at me getting married cause I am a REBEL.. And he is quiet and calm. Things that I am not.. LOL. And he is SQUARE.

love ya'll , gonna go arrange somethings so I can set up my machine.

Oh I Almost Forgot

2010-09-02T17:29:00.000-05:00

I am a avid reader of all things fiction from historial romance to Vampire novels. And since I occasionally write book reviews I have started a new blog, actually two new blogs with the same name.. Passiononthepages.blogspot.com and passionthepages.wordpress.com

there is nothing I love more than books and since I have begun receiving books directly from the authors for review I have decided to do those reviews somewhere else.

If you love books, especially those written by African American authors please join me.

Sewing Crisis

2010-09-02T17:20:00.001-05:00

Back in February I won a copy of Burda magazine, it was the first time I had ever laid eyes on the magazine. In that issue there is a trench coat pattern that I want to make before my move to New Jersey in November as I do not currently own a coat. (Hey I live in Texas)
Here is the problem. I have no idea where the issue is now and I want to scream.. Let me tell you when I received the magazine I took it everywhere with me and looked at it over and over especially that coat.
So if anyone has it and would like to part with it please let me know... It was a plus size coat because I am a plus size girlie..
By the way I came across a blog post somewhere are about using butcher paper to copy a pattern.. And found out that reynold's now makes freezer paper (butcher paper) I was too excited because trying to copy a RTW onto newspaper sucks air... .

Thanks ya'll

update: I found my burda thanks..

still receiving gifts

2010-08-27T14:47:00.000-05:00

So people are still sending me gifts for my birthday....I get a new webcam and a Harry and David fruit package. And I still waiting on two other gifts.

I am still enjoying the love I am receiving from you all.

Had a great birthday

2010-08-22T00:58:00.000-05:00

Hello Ladies,
so if you are one of my facebook friends or we met in some other social media setting then you know that Thursday was my birthday. I had a on-going countdown that seemed to annoy most of friends. But as I stated in my status the next day it was about me and being grateful that I had been given the opportunity to see my 34th birthday because there were days when it was uncertain.

Let me tell you that I can not remember being happier than I was on Thursday everyone showed me so much love and I am still receiving gifts and let me tell you I NEVER get gifts for my birthday or Christmas wel maybe I should say rarely because my sister Angie is good for some bath and bodyworks each year for Christmas.

Because of certain events in my life I had to do some restructuring and some friends were let go even though it was no easy. When I tell you that I do not do DRAMA I mean that, it is the quickest way to get you sent to the nearest exit no matter how much I love you.
Anyway my friend Katrenia took me to the restaurant of my choice and I chose Texas Land and Cattle, yes it is a steakhouse (sorry Adrienne I did not take a picture of my plate but I did take pictures of two out of the three drinks) I will post them later. Let me just say that I stopped drinking long ago.. And I am still recuperating.

Anyhow, ladybugs I am still getting rid of all these clothes that I can not wear anymore.. (too big, Whoo) and then purging other things that will not make it to Jersey with me.
A friend has requested my pink shirt so I am gonna finish removing the rehab and send it to her. .She has a wig that I want badly (crazy I know) so we are gonna trade. Enough for now the allergy meds are kicking in..

DIY project pink shirt

2010-08-15T18:42:00.000-05:00

hi Ladies

While purging my clothes I found this shirt and decided to remove the sleeves and make it a little more me. The shirt is different shades of pink starting a light pink and ending in a dark shade the color of the sleeves. Not good at photos so bare with a sista.

front of the shirt

I love the embroidery around the collar which is what made e try to save the shirt. it has gathering underneath the bust. It is essentially a long sleeve tunic.

While in the process of purging I located this pink shirt that I used to wear all of the time.

this is the ribbon tie sleeve
not sure if you can but the ribbon on the sleeves is very worn which is another reason I decided to take the sleeves off. I must admit in the past I would have just thrown this away but what a difference a year of sewing blogs and having a machine makes..

This is the shirt after I removed one of the sleeves

so hopefully I can finish this by my birthday Thursday and will wear it with some dark blue denim leggings and my favorite Steve Madden open toe booties..

One of my birthday gifts

2010-08-12T18:27:00.001-05:00

Kathy Van Zeeland French Kiss Shopper - eBags.com

Got this as a birthday present from Tony.. I love it.. This marks my 15th Kathy Bag.. I love them

Purging but no sewing

2010-08-12T17:58:00.001-05:00

So as I told you all before I am getting married to a wonderful person that I almost overlooked due to my previous experiences. So glad that God made me see his heart and not where he comes from. Anyhow, I currently live at home with parents and moving across town is way easier than moving across the country.

With that said I have started purging. As I stated in a previous post I lost 63 pounds and can no longer wear the size 16 and 18's I was wearing in pants so I am going to be sending these items to the salvation army along with brand new items that I bought previously and never wore (like a glittery red tube top). I am already one garbage bag full and still not even close. I would do a garage sale except due to my heart condition I can not tolerate the intense heat enveloping Texas.

So I will be in Jersey in November just in time to get settled and be able to take the train into New York city for New Year's eve. I am too excited. And I will get the chance to meet Kashi when I go shopping for fabric in the greatest place on earth.

I did not think I of all people would actually be getting married and not be freaking out at this point. (i have been engaged several times) A Sister is very committment phobic. But I am calm, excited and ready to be with my honey. This is what happens when you finally see what has been in front of you for a long time but you try to put that man in a different category.
Almost lost him for good once but God had a greater plan.

Singer Pintuck Foot - 386022017 TheSewingCenter.com Singer -

2010-08-10T17:32:00.003-05:00

Singer Pintuck Foot - 386022017 TheSewingCenter.com Singer -

I really need this foot.. I put out a request to my sister Angie to get it as a birthday gift..

sewing related

2010-08-06T23:25:00.000-05:00

I really like this coat and since I desperately need a coat for the winter I think it will work. Need fabric.

I really need to make this dress with the long sleeves and the 3 quarter length ones. Believe it or not I love dresses but I don't wear them.. Partly because I busty and RTW dresses make me look bigger than I am.. But Patrice inspire me to press on when I saw all the dresses she has made lately.

I really like this jacket, minus the big flower.. I do not need to draw attention to the boobs. But I want to make this in a jewel tone.

I have cut out the pattern for the shorts I just need to sew them up. But it is hotter than hell's sauna here. This house has a lot of windows which brings in a lot of heat. Seriously it was 110 when I went to the store yesterday.

more changes

2010-08-06T23:19:00.000-05:00

So I had my interview on Wednesday and it seemed to go well. However I failed to mentioned that I had received a email from a recruiter about a job in Raleigh, NC. I was talking to the future hubby who advised me to go ahead and send the information that was being requested. So I did. Yesterday the recruiter called and advised that I would go on to have a interview with the hiring manager over the phone on Monday afternoon.
So if I ace this interview I could be moving to Raleigh instead of New Jersey. I am scared but it is a nervous scared not out of fear. See I have done this before, when I moved to Atlanta, and then again when I moved to San Antonio, TX. I think a change of scenery is needed.

So please pray for me because I believe this to be a great opportunity for me.

LoL

2010-08-04T10:57:00.000-05:00

Ya'll are so funny. Thanks for the well wishes on my upcoming nuptials.
I had the interview this morning at nine, it seems to have gone well but you never can tell. I got this interview through a head hunter so we will see what happens. She did not adequately describe the position at all. I normally work as a claims adjuster for various companies (I am a independent) and although she told me that this was the same type of position it is not. This job is for quality assurance, so I would be auditing the files of other adjusters. Although I have no issue doing this job it definitely makes for a lot of drama. oh well off to harass the future Mr.Carla E. (haha)

Slowing down to smell the roses

2010-08-03T23:24:00.000-05:00

Hey Ladies,

I have been crazy busy as I currently do not have anyone helping me with stuff around the house with the parents but I am gonna leave that with GOD and move on.

I have another interview tomorrow so I am hoping that works out. I also accepted a marriage proposal which I will explain later is much more explicit detail.

And no it is not the man I blogged about not to long ago. I know I am a something else but I follow my heart and pray a lot because I will take risks.
I mean I am number 5 out of 7. I was the first one to move away from my family (the gang) to a whole other state which none of them had ever been.. There was a lot of drama behind that move. Then when I moved again in 04 no one was surprised. But I have been in a rut since I moved back to Dallas and it is time to move on from here.

So my wedding date in 11/23/10 (Neecha we changed it) then our honeymoon will be the drive back to New Jersey.

Okay

2010-07-25T23:23:00.000-05:00

I deleted my last post because I do not want my blog to be about negative people even if we share the same blood line. So shout out to Adrienne for the hug. I am better now.

I have traced the pattern for my shorts I just need to figure out how to add the crotch part. And decide on fabric. I believe if I go ahead and sew it will keep me from putting my hands on other people in a ungodly way. Soooo.... and my hair journey is not going well. I think that I am going to postpone my natural hair journey until I done job hunting because I can barely get a comb through the new growth (sorry Neecha).
If my disability is approved then I am gonna big chop and go on to the next thing on my list of things to do.

Every child deserves a chance at life.

2010-07-21T01:08:00.000-05:00

Yesterday while watching the local news they lead with two stories about two mothers.

One was a 17 year old girl whose baby was in the hospital. the baby was hooked up to a respirator and she attempted to smother the child. The monitor went off and the doctors were able to save the baby. Upon watching the video they questioned the mother who advised that she had tried to kill the baby and that this was not the first time.

The other mother was much other and the mother of two.. 2 and 5, she wrapped extension cords around their necks until they turned blue. The 5 year old was a boy and he died the other child is in critical condition. She called 911 herself.

Let me say that I am a advocate for children at all times. I am still a foster parent (although on break at this time). I encourage you to please consider becoming one as well.. Because this is what happens when there are not enough foster parents available. The those children were allowed to stay with their mother although she had tried hurting them before (the second mother). All it takes is enough room in your house and your heart. They can share a room with another child of the same sex and they are not all horrible children. And on that note let me say.. I have gotten the bad behavior report on kids I have taken in only to find that the child acted nothing like that. The worst I had was a 22month old little boy who said "shit" once I told him not to say it. He did not say again. He had simply not been corrected..

All children deserve a chance to grow up without harm. If you have questions, I can help. I am tired of seeing these children die day after day at the hands of parents who do not want them. Or simply do not have the capacity to care for them.

Book Review: Breakaway by Rochelle Alers

2010-07-12T19:08:00.002-05:00

Dear Rochelle Alers:

For the first time ever, I can not give one of your books 5 out of 5 stars. Why? because you took away the action that I have always gotten in your story.. Where were was the suspense? No one tried to kill Celia once she was in North Carolina. And how about just a little more about Raymond (Orlando) so he just calls and that's it.. No confrontation between the brothers.
Because you have never disappointed me before I will forgive you this one time. Please remember that you are the best at suspense and romance (see Stranger in my Arms) please don't forget the action scenes in your next story.

Still a devoted fan

Carla

Next sewing project

2010-07-07T17:20:00.000-05:00

okay the shorts are below, I have three pair and I paid $5 dollars for them. They did not come with the cami at the store although I would not have bought them if they did. You see I am plus-size in tops (size 26), it is the boobs but I wear a Juniors size 15 in bottoms (this is smaller than a Women's 14). So as you can see this is a big size difference. So I plan to lay these out and trace out a pattern from then. I have some cotton material from Hancock fabric that I will be using. Wish me luck.

my hair journey

2010-07-06T18:45:00.000-05:00

I think that I mentioned my new natural hair journey. I am not going to perm my hair anytime soon even if I have moments of weakness. This is not going to turn into a hair blog so relax. I blog about what ever I feel like writing so I guess I am a dictator (LOL).. anyhow I found some new products to use on my hair.

I will let you know how these products work for me. I want to see if I can get my hair to look like it did before. I don't want to scare you so I am not going to post a picture of my head at the moment..

Later I will post a picture of the shorts that I am attempting to copy

Book Review: Dying on the Edge by Francine Craft

2010-07-06T01:22:00.000-05:00

Dying on the Edge by Francine Craft

My rating: 5 of 5 stars
When I first started the book I was kind of leery being a New Orleans native I have heard my share of voodoo stories but this was not the entire foundation of the story and I am glad. As much as I want to tell you about this story I don't want to spoil it for you. I will tell you that the person you think is the killer just may not be. I had about five suspects and they were all wrong.

I am a fan of Ms. Craft and I must say that she did not disappoint me with this one even if I thought she did when I first started reading it. Trust me when you get about 50 pages in you are gonna be like what the heck! but keep going. There is a lot going on in this story so fight the urge to skip ahead because if you do you will be confused and will have to go back anyway.

I gave the book 5 stars because it did not treat the voodoo aspect in the typical way, also because she kept me guessing. I wish it would have gone a little deeper into some of the characters but in the end i loved it.

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Renewed

2010-07-06T00:00:00.001-05:00

Hello

I had the entire weekend to myself and guess I what I found out.. I can not be alone in a house. When I lived alone in my two bedroom apartment I was very comfortable but not so while living here. I am still on my job hunt and it is getting down to the wire as I really only have a small window of time left.
So please pray for me.. I am actually now seeking employment in other states as long as the company is paying the moving expenses.. I will keep you abreast of the situation.